'I was thinking about posting a Facebook status I can see the end of Jonathan Agassi.' I thought I was muscular, healthy, had a sex drive. I was on drugs the whole time. I can't really sleep, my sex drive has gone, I can't perform sexually. 'I'm having a rough time, said Aggasi, 'Sad tired and weak. He confessed that he was 'addicted to a certain drug' and told that he was thinking of telling his friends he could 'see the end' of Jonathan Agassi. The film ended by showing a tearful Agassi sat outside smoking a cigarette, admitting that while he originally thought he was enjoying his life, he was 'on drugs for all of it'. Later, the filmmaker was forced to step in once again when he began to writhe around on the floor after losing control of his body, before passing, all while presumably high on drugs. Jonathan is pictured after coming back to Israel to his mother Anna Towards the end of the film, Agassi was seen injecting drugs into his arm and later was seen nonsensically mumbling and passing out backwards on top of a car with Heymann stepping in to assist him.Īgassi is now living with his mother, having quit the adult film industry and moved back to Tel Aviv. I became cold and distant and I simply shut my heart.' I'm not trying to blame anyone, but your mother's depression, that was a big part of what came between us. 'You were always alone, you were always clean and well fed, but you never got the hugs and attention babies need. In the end it was a boy. For her, it was a shock she had postpartum depression. She was sure it was a girl and that's the only reason we kept the pregnancy. We moved to Canada, after only four months, your mum said she was pregnant. 'In all honestly', said his dad, 'Shahaf (his sibling) was the only child that was planned. He was later seen talking on the phone to a man he would have sex with for money and insisted that while he was 'exhausted' and 'didn't know how he would do it', he was happy because 'at least he had work'.Īt one point in the documentary, Agassi is seen confronting his dad for abandoning him as a child, and asked why his treatment of Jonathan was never equal to that of his siblings. 'This gift, this career is the best thing that ever happened to me', says Agassi, 'After all the bad, this is the best thing that ever happened to me, I’m going to hold on to it forever.' Jonathan is pictured preparing for the HustlaBall ceremony in Berlin It was soon clear that the star was struggling to gain work, and revealed that he was missing chunks from his payments as he was unable to climax on set.
He was seen injecting himself with a 'painful' drug to maintain an erection for four hour prior to a shoot, before smoking more methamphetamine in a room full of other porn stars. 'It gets you mile high, gives you loads of energy, it awakens you. It's not like a trip, like you get on ecstasy, it makes you very sexual'. He was shown taking the drugs in his Berlin flat, before going to adult award show, the HustlaBall ceremony, where he won Best Adult Male Performer in the US.Īfter permanently moving to Germany, Agassi's drug use appeared to be getting worse, with footage showing him smoking methamphetamine. The film documented the gradually increasing drug use of Agassi, which began with adult star casually taking cocaine and methamphetamine. 'I remember taking out all that money and Mum looked at it and asked, "How much do you have there? Weigh it against how it made you feel, is it worth it?".' He is pictured with his friend Christo, during preparations to HustlaBall ceremony in Berlin The documentary delves into the traumatic childhood of Agassi, growing up gay in the suburbs of Tel Aviv. 'I put the money away and then Mum got back from work and I said "I did something all night long, I’m so sad, I’ll never be a prostitute". I came home at 10am, wasted with $4,000 depressed, crying. He said: 'The first time I escorted was in Israel, I wouldn’t let him do what he did to me unless he paid me. He revealed that his first time being paid for sex was accidental, and said that while he was left 'depressed and crying' - he would eventually weigh up the shame he felt, compared to the money he could make. It soon emerged that Jonathan was not just a porn star, but had also been working as a male escort.
And it's always like I'm the one to blame.' They threw s*** at me because I'm feminine. He added: 'A ten-year-old breaks his arm you'd expect his classmates to come and visit. Jonathan went on: 'They said, "Go through window" and I said "I don't want to do this", and I swear, I'm tearing up.' Jonathan is pictured preparing for the HustlaBall ceremony in Berlin At many points in the film, Agassi spoke about his troubled relationship with his father, who had abandoned him as a child.